I continue to pray this ‘change’ in me will not, well, change.
Much of my life is the same… my car is about to be repossessed, the ‘dream’ condo I was planning to move to has been rented to someone else, I continue feeling distanced by friends who have needed to step away from our friendship, my bills for November – including rent – have not been paid, etc.
But what is not the same is I have peace beyond understanding. I truly ‘let things go’ and not only am I not worried, I am so fulfilled by my relationship with Christ that the sense of loss I have felt is no longer there. Again, it is as if I got married, and now I know my husband will take care of me, my relationship with Him fulfills all the needs I have, including social. Guess you can say I have freedom in Christ… and it feels incredibly liberating.