Monday, February 7, 2011

Be Like Jesus

My entire life, I have believed God’s will for me was to encourage others with disabilities and afflictions. After all, there is a reason why I talk and walk differently from others. Having a passion for writing with the gift of introspection and a brain that is able to cognitively process information, the way I am created had made my purpose in life evident – until a few months ago. I’ve been struggling to discover why I am here. Obviously, God still has work for me to do since he hasn’t called me home to heaven. I am fine not having a husband… I am quite happy not having children… but not having a purpose, at least not knowing His purpose for me, is unbearable.
Think about Jesus, how he was rejected and denied even by his closest friends (i.e. Peter) yet he kept doing His Father’s will. He stayed focus on His mission, knowing and doing what truly mattered. 

I want to be like Jesus.

I don’t know what my next step is or how specifically God wants me to live for Him. I
know that I want to be like Jesus – and that is one of the few things in life that never changes. My frustration is with not knowing how my disability and writing plays in the picture. But maybe I have the picture too narrow. Maybe I am concentrating so much on seeing the vision that I am missing the big picture. After all, even Jesus didn’t have all the answers as he asked the Father why he had forsaken him (Matt. 27:46).

When it all comes down to it, isn’t that what is most important? To know Jesus loves us and will never let us go? Truly, regardless of what is in our bank account, refrigerator, or family album,
none of it matters without feeling safe and loved.
Jesus gave up everything to give us that security and love. But we must accept it, take the gift. As Christians, being like Jesus is our universal purpose. Even if our job duties are unclear, we must show up for work. God will tell us where he needs us to work. Until he does, sit at his feet and wait. He may want you to stay and talk with him awhile, free from distractions. Not only does he have the Master Plan, he has everything taken care of… including you.
Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. – Colossians 3:1,2

1 comment:

Jennifer said...

This makes me think of what His purpose for me is. Clearly you know the gifts He has given you. Now, it's finding out how to use those gifts to touch people's lives, especially those with disabilities.