What? Do you have any idea how hard it is to have your student loans forgiven? Am I THAT disabled? I WANT to pay back my student loans. I WANT to work again. I can push through my anxiety and depression…and my thoughts alternated to thinking I had to show up to volunteer at church, and how anxious I was, and how I wanted to stay in bed, and my heart began racing and I was sweating and… I worked myself up into a pitiful mess just thinking about leaving my home! It was ridiculous. If I wasn’t in my body, I would think I was overreacting, but I was there and it was real.
I did the one thing that always calms me – I went to Jesus and asked Him to let me release my past and my future to Him… help me focus completely on glorifying Him today, this very moment, and leave the future to Him. Cast your anxiety on him because he cares for you and Take captive every thought and make it obedient to him.
I don’t know what’s going to happen… and that is okay, because God does… and God is in control.