My only guess is I had such a wonderful couple of days, yesterday I was disappointed and discouraged when my ‘norm’ returned. I had plans with Karen but I canceled (only half due to my part, the other half was pest control), still, made sure I spoke on the phone with a few people (counting my bank!). Still, I was in bed for approximately 18 hours total.
I cannot allow myself to isolate.
The only comfort I found was listening to Psalms being read on iTunes. I focused, I believed, I knew the words to be true… and that is how I ended my day. I go back to the psychiatrist tomorrow and am hoping he will increase my antidepressant medication. I have to hang in there, for if all goes well. I will move back to Tallahassee in exactly one year. I have started saving my pennies. But first, I have to survive another year of holidays, including my birthday on August 24th. I have yet to find ways to celebrate holidays alone (my relatives don’t even call). I will. It’ll get easier.