Friday, November 28, 2008

My Niece Knows Starbucks!

Nashville Black Friday


My brother took me up a mountain to see some foilage. There were many houses for sale and my sister-in-law said "I wonder why all these houses are for sale" to which my 5 year old nephew explained, "It's Black Friday! Everything is on sale!"

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Non-Florida



So I'm leaving the state for a few days... gotta admit, I am not looking forward to leaving Florida. So I've been scanning the 'net for photos of non-Florida weather. Here's a cool site to check out.

Feels like I've forgotten how to have faith. Strange. Glad to have a couple days to process and PRAY for peace.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Crime on campus - News

Crime on campus - News

Have to add this... this means another bad game with 5 suspended players! Self-discipline, guys!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Today

I want to feel better-
Want to have hope.
Remember God's ways are
so much greater than my scope.

Don't want to be defeated-
Don't want to surrender.
God has a purposeful plan
This I need to remember.
sw

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Benefits of Cerebral Palsy

Here is a video of me telling some benefits of having cerebral palsy.

Emily's Letter to The World


This is my letter to the world,
That never wrote to me,
The simple news that Nature told,
With tender majesty.
Her message is committed
To hands I cannot see;
For love of her, sweet countrymen,
Judge tenderly of me!


-- Emily Dickinson

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Done

Stayed in bed all day-
No commitments were looming.
Needed to escape from-
My life - all-consuming.

Faith, I still have it.
Strength, not so much.
Determination is gone.
I've thrown out my crutch.

Call me a coward,
A hypocrite to my core.
Say I've no faith...
I just don't care anymore.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

It's A New Day


This is my theme song for today...Avalon's "It's a New Day"

I love Avalon! They are in my top 3 favorite groups with Def Leppard and Northland's Worship Team. Jeremi actually goes to my church sometimes and he is one of the coolest people ever! And his voice... you can't help but praise God when he sings.

Monday, November 10, 2008

I'm Sure They Meant Well


Haven't blogged in a few days because I learned there was an email going around to my 'friends' about me. I am sure it was all out of love and concern, with only the best intentions... I am thankful to have friends who care so much... Still, I feel like they were all declaring me mentally incompetent or something. I don't like it. I shared my play by play experiences to show how God works in my life and to glorify Him... evidently, some people 'freaked out' and called for outside intervention.

The issue was I don't have a plan... I am living day by day... um YEAH!!! My whole life has had to be relying on God day by day! The whole situation bothers me... I need to let it go.

I found out some very disturbing news today about SSDI - I'm not going to blog about it though as I don't want my friends to worry. I shared it with 3 close friends (2 pastors & 1 wife) and will keep the rest to myself. In the meantime, here is a great site about SSDI/SSI.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Humility


A friend of mine went through the next couple of months to plan how she would pay her bills and help me at the same time. She’s practically a single mom who is underemployed, working at a job that does not pay her for what she is worth. Wanting to pay my car payment, she called the loan officer, and tried making a deal with the bank on my behalf. I told her not to worry about my car payment, I know she doesn’t have the money. I honestly do not want her to use her hard-earned money more than I don’t want to lose my car. In other words, her well-being is more important to me than my car. All she said was, “You would do it for me...”

Wow. Honestly, I am amazed how God is changing my heart, amazed at how He is using such a hard season to bless me in life-changing ways. Lately, I am praying for humility on a regular basis. From God’s provision to the quality, unconditional friends He has put in my life, none of it is because of anything I do… it is ALL from the grace of God.

The Enemy has been telling me I am too much of a burden on my friends, which is why some have walked away. I mean, I have a LOT of problems, life-and-death kind of stuff… there is always some ‘crisis’ going on and some people, even relatives, have to walk away for their own mental health. Still, God has given me unbelievable friends who make sacrifices in their own lives, refuse to walk away, and send me emails with words like this:
“We’re all rooting for you, praying for you, glad to be with you, and eager to see how God steers you through this season. Keep glorifying Him...”


It is easy to let such friendships make me prideful, believing I must be a pretty special person for people to travel such a hard journey with me. After asking God to remind me HE has given me all these friends, I found a verse that helps me put all this in perspective. Jesus said: John 6:44
No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him…

The Amplified version says,
No one is able to come to Me unless the Father Who sent Me attracts and draws him and gives him the desire to come to Me…


Even the desire to cry to Jesus comes from the Father. Everything, even the awareness of the existence of God, comes from God… we can take no credit for our faith, mercy and love. There is no room for pride since all we have comes from the grace of God. It is nothing we do, nothing we ‘earn’, nothing we deserve.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

It's All Good!

I continue to pray this ‘change’ in me will not, well, change.

Much of my life is the same… my car is about to be repossessed, the ‘dream’ condo I was planning to move to has been rented to someone else, I continue feeling distanced by friends who have needed to step away from our friendship, my bills for November – including rent – have not been paid, etc.

But what is not the same is I have peace beyond understanding. I truly ‘let things go’ and not only am I not worried, I am so fulfilled by my relationship with Christ that the sense of loss I have felt is no longer there. Again, it is as if I got married, and now I know my husband will take care of me, my relationship with Him fulfills all the needs I have, including social. Guess you can say I have freedom in Christ… and it feels incredibly liberating.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Carried

When I went up to be anointed Sunday, Teresa walked with me so I could hold on to her arm. My feet felt like loads of cement as I struggled to lift the right foot, then left, then right. The congregation was asked to say the name of the person they were lifting up in prayer for healing. The sound of Teresa’s voice matched Rob’s lips, “Shelly”. Once the oil was on my forehead, I couldn’t feel my limbs. They weren’t numb, rather I truly could not sense them. It was so profound, I didn’t understand why that happened. Had my ‘old’ body been removed?

I read my devotional, Streams in the Dessert (thanks, Steve!), which mentioned palm trees. Brushing my teeth, I noticed for the first time, my soap dish and shower curtain have palm trees. I felt Him smiling at me, telling me He is all around me, He is holding me. As I took in His embrace, He revealed what had happened during the anointing:

I had to step out in obedience… He knew I would not go alone, so he placed Teresa and Rob there with me, praying for me. Once I had the faith to get out of my chair, and walked the unsteady path, it was when He anointed me through the elder that I no longer felt the heaviness of my limbs. Of course, He was carrying me!

Monday, November 3, 2008

Palm Master-Peace

When I awoke yesterday morning, I prayed that God would keep my mind on him, removing all distractions… after attending worship at Northland, I couldn’t stop thinking about Him for the rest of the day. I kept marveling over His grace, love, and sovereignty. Threads of my life keep tying together into a beautiful tapestry! I can’t wait to see the completed Master piece!

I am not even going to try to explain what happened. There are no words… but that’s okay… just like a husband and wife relationship, this is something so incredibly intimate that Jesus wants me to keep it between me and Him.

Just a small glimpse into the gifts he lavished me with throughout the day: Pastor Vernon read part of Psalm 93 in the sermon… it was an unfamiliar passage, something about being anointed with oil and becoming like a palm tree. Late last night, I had Joel Osteen on for background noise, and he referenced the exact same passage! Of course, I looked it up… Matthew’s commentary says:

Let us seek for ourselves the salvation and grace of the gospel, that being daily anointed by the Holy Spirit, we may behold and share the Redeemer's glory. It is from his grace, by his word and Spirit, that believers receive all the virtue that keeps them alive, and makes them fruitful. Other trees, when old, leave off bearing, but in God's trees the strength of grace does not fail with the strength of nature. The last days of the saints are sometimes their best days, and their last work their best work: perseverance is sure evidence of sincerity.

I will never view palm trees the same again.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Excuse Me

Every excuse I come up with for not believing, God reminds me of His Truth:

1. God isn’t telling me to do that… I was raised NOT to believe in anointing of oil
-I know Him in an intimate way today, unlike my earlier years when I had legalistic view of Him.
2. I cannot remove this idol… I think about it all the time.
- Correct; I cannot remove this idol, but I can ask God to purify my thoughts and rid my mind of all that is not of Him.
3. I tried that many times… it never lasts despite my good intentions.
-The enemy is not going to give me a respite; rather, he pounces when I let my guard down. My willpower never lasts, but His mercies and love remain forever.
4. On a practical level, I cannot participate in the service because I am still coughing & will disrupt congregants; I may fall on my way to the altar; I can’t do communion by myself; I don’t know if I believed in what is practiced; This idol is distracting me from Jesus…
As a friend reminded me earlier, nothing about Jesus is practical.

It’s all about Jesus… not pride, finances, relatives, idols… JESUS. Lay it all on the cross – give it to Him, and don’t look back.

“If you falter in times of trouble, how small is your strength!” – Proverbs 24:10

--
Shelly Weiss

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Nanowrimo Day #1

4:39am

I've been up for a couple hours researching names for my main characters. Think I have 'em: Mary, Sarai, and Eliab. This is my first attempt at Christian fiction and the premise of the story is the contrast of who Jesus is in an individual's life. The idea is literally unfolding minute by minute. I just pray I use my God-given skills and talents to glorify Him through my writing.

I found the following writer's prayer excerpt in an interview with Kurt Vonnegut:
It was written by Samuel Johnson on April 3, 1753, the day on which he signed a contract which required him to write the first complete dictionary of the English language. He was praying for himself. Perhaps April third should be celebrated as "Writers' Day." Anyway, this is the prayer: "O God, who hast hitherto supported me, enable me to proceed in this labor, and in the whole task of my present state; that when I shall render up, at the last day, an account of the talent committed to me, I may receive pardon, for the sake of Jesus Chris. Amen.


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