Monday, January 31, 2011

Steadfast Loyalty to God

This morning, I was led to 1 Peter 5:10 - “And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm, and steadfast.“

Hmmm. God will himself make me steadfast… I like that.

I went to the beginning of the chapter to get the proper perspective… in order for God to make me steadfast, I must humble myself, give him my anxieties, be self-controlled and alert to resist the devil (isn’t that part of being steadfast??) and stand firm in the faith.
Wow, considering the issue I am struggling with most right now, I don’t know if I can do all that!

I began thinking of why I couldn’t do what Peter advises and how my situation is unlike other’s. Yesterday in an email exchange, I asked my dear friend if he thought it was ‘‘normal“ to be so polarized in one’s level of obedience, depending on surroundings. (I am so ready to fully follow God’s leading when I have my Morning Quiet Time… but 2 hours in ‘the world‘ my good intentions go to… well, you know.)

My friend didn’t answer that question last night, but God did this morning as I finished reading the passage: Resist him (satan), standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Do you have trouble obeying God in certain areas of your life? Please share.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

From Poetry Ebook Vol. 2

I fall ashamed 
a pool of disappointment
      from straying off His path.

I thought I could
   Independently slip away... 
      "I'll be right back..."

a minor detour
     with major consequences 
         Satan enticing me.

Disguising himself
    Not as foreign as I pretended
        I knew it was him. 

I tried to reason with God,
    "I know what I'm doing! Just let me have space..."
        I dropped His strong hand. 

He gave me space,
   With tears in His eyes...
      Concern on His face. 

And I fell. 
Though He gave me space,
He never deserted me. 
Once again, He cushioned my fall. 
He picked me up, brushed off my knees,
    and accepted my sincere apology. 

As His child, I am learning I cannot wander freely from Him,
I am back on His path
    Grasping His hand
         Leaning on Him. 

from My Poetry Ebook Volume 1

Deceptive Call
His phone call this morning, I ended with pride.
I masked the emotions that were penned up inside.
I’ve moved on without him – what I tried to convey.
He said I had changed, but he’s glad I’m okay.
“Maybe this year, all your dreams will come true…”
The depths of my dreams, he hasn’t a clue.

Friendship Ended
You take my best gifts and turn them to faults.
While I’m nursing my wounds you burn them with salt.
So much you have given, much of it good.
I’ve strived to repay you the best ways that I could…
Accepting your values – conflicting with mine.
I gave unconditional regard time after time.
All this has changed, I’m moving on!
My desire to know you, frankly, has gone.
The place in my life that you had is now closed.
Instead, you’re just someone that I use to know.

He Never Changes

Some things, you never get over. You never are free from certain memories, nor do you want to be. The love mixed with pain has contributed to the core person you are today. When everything material and temporary has been stripped away, you are a collage of pieces built by life, glued together with the values and beliefs in which the Creator formed you. All my years of training as a psychotherapist has taught me an infinite amount about human behavior and social systems, yet not nearly as much as I have learned from the Holy Spirit.

Some things never change. There are loves you will love for literally an eternity, regardless of circumstances. There are beliefs and values that no one could disprove or take away from you. And, unfortunately, there are behaviors you will always default to… like an abused animal that has been in a safe, loving environment for the majority of his life. It will always default back to the early days of self-survival.

God never changes. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, the beginning and the end. He is the certainty in a world of uncertainty, the surety in a mind of confusion.
*This also happens to be my birthday verse from 2007. What a way to remember, Seminole was a gift from Him… I will, therefore, try to turn my mourning for Seminole into praise for the Lord.
James 1:17 – Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

Saturday, January 29, 2011


It takes humility to accept God cares for you.

What? Isn’t it when we feel the lowest about ourselves that we believe God has forgotten or given up on us because we are so unlovable?

It takes humility to accept God cares for you.

Isn’t it PRIDE that causes one to believe that God cares specifically for us when he has all of the other people in the world? Pride, not humility to believe He could care about whatever petty thing we care about?

It takes humility to accept God cares for you.

PRIDE is believing we are better than others, or somehow, for whatever reason, we are the exception. PRIDE is expecting different treatment than others.

God’s Word is full of promises centered around His steadfast love for his children… full of promises of redemption, comfort, compassion, and love.

Are YOU an exception to those promises? Are you so PRIDEFUL to believe you do not fit in with His creation?

It takes humility to accept God cares for you.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Rich Mullins Quotes

Rich Mullins Quotes:

"Never forget what Jesus did for you. Never take lightly what it cost Him.
And never assume that if it cost Him His very life, that it won't also cost
you yours."

"So go out and live real good and I promise you'll get beat up real bad.
But, in a little while after you're dead, you'll be rotted away anyway. It's
not gonna matter if you have a few scars. It will matter if you didn't

"It's so funny being a Christian musician. It always scares me when people
think so highly of Christian music, Contemporary Christian music especially.
Because I kinda go, I know a lot of us, and we don't know jack about
anything. Not that I don't want you to buy our records and come to our
concerts. I sure do. But you should come for entertainment. If you really
want spiritual nourishment, you should go to should read the

"We do not find happiness by being assertive. We don't find happiness by
running over people because we see what we want and they are in the way of
that happiness so we either abandon them or we smash them. The Scriptures
don't teach us to be assertive. The Scriptures teach us—and this is
remarkable—the Scriptures teach us to be submissive. This is not a popular

"I had a prof one time... He said, 'Class, you will forget almost everything
I will teach you in here, so please remember this: that God spoke to Balaam
through his ass, and He has been speaking through asses ever since. So, if
God should choose to speak through you, you need not think too highly of
yourself. And, if on meeting someone, right away you recognize what they
are, listen to them anyway'."

"I think if we were given the Scriptures, it was not so that we could prove
that we were right about everything. If we were given the Scriptures, it was
to humble us into realizing that God is right, and the rest of us are just

"Christianity is not about building an absolutely secure little niche in the
world where you can live with your perfect little wife and your perfect
little children in your beautiful little house where you have no gays or
minority groups anywhere near you. Christianity is about learning to love
like Jesus loved and Jesus loved the poor and Jesus loved the broken."

"Bear in mind, children, that they listen to you because you are kids—not
because you are right. That's how our Father listens to us."

"We never understand what we're praying, and God, in His mercy, does not
answer our prayers according to our understanding, but according to His

"Yes, it's embarrassing to be born again, but imagine how embarrassing it
must have been to be born the first time. At least this time you get to wear

"We are not saved because we're good. We're good because we're saved. Never
forget what Jesus did for you."

"If you've ever known the love of God, you know it's nothing but reckless
and it's nothing but raging. Sometimes it hurts to be loved, and if it
doesn't hurt it's probably not love, may be infatuation. I think a lot of
American people are infatuated with God, but we don't really love Him, and
they don't really let Him love them. Being loved by God is one of the most
painful things in the world, it's also the only thing that can bring us
salvation and it's like everything else that is really wonderful, there's a
little bit of pain in it, little bit of hurt."

"It's just that for so many people that I know, Christianity's this matter
of ... it has everything to do with morals. Christianity is a religion about
morals. And they will even talk about Jesus. And they will say kids need to
know about Jesus so they won't smoke, drink, or dance, or go with girls that
do, and all that kind of thing. And I kinda go, 'That's not why people need
to know about Jesus. The only reason—the only possible excuse for talking
about Jesus is because we need a Savior.'"

"I am a Christian, not because someone explained the nuts and bolts of
Christianity to me, but because there were people willing to be nuts and

"If you want a religion that makes sense, go somewhere else. But if you want
a religion that makes life, choose Christianity."

He Sees

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths,] you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. --Psalm 139:7-10

I awakened this morning by a bright light… it was the moon. A few days ago, I wrote about sensing God smiling at me through the moon, assuring me that he is always watching over me. Needless to say, opening my eyes to the brightness of the moon is a comforting start to my day., remembering He’s always there, always watching. He knows what I am experiencing:

* When my friends bless me with kindness and grace, He sees.
* Whether I notice or take them for granted… He sees
*When I am jealous hearing how easily people find new jobs, He sees.
*Each day press on through pain and sorrow, giving it my best, trusting something better will come, He sees.
*When someone is hurting and I pass them by out of selfish ambition, He sees.
* When I put my ‘to-do’ list on hold to comfort someone in need, He sees.
*When I remove myself from a tempting situation, though it may be difficult, He sees.
*But when I try to justify giving in to the flesh, He sees.

I need Him to see, the good, bad, and the ugly. I need Him to hold me accountable. I need to know that He sees every injustice, oppression, and unfairness done to me and by me. I need to know that He works everything out for the good of those who love Him, and in the end, justice will prevail.

The doctrine of God’s omnipresence appropriately fills us with awe. In addition to the reverence it engenders, the doctoring also proves to be comforting. We can always be certain of God’s undivided attention…When we are in God’s presence, He is not preoccupied with events on the other side of the world. The doctrine is, of course, not at all comforting to the nonbeliever. There is no place to hide from God... the wicked in hell are not separated from God, only from His benevolence. His wrath is with them constantly… God’s omnipresence is a comfort to the believer and a terror to the unbeliever. – R.C. Sproul

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Poem - Ollie the Octopus

Ollie's four right legs turn downward and in,
This is the way they have always been.
It doesn't hurt, but it changes his height.
Because his left legs are shorter than his legs on the right. 

Ollie wears braces that looks like a boot,
No one can see them when he wears a suit.
Ollie doesn't care who knows or sees,
He can run, play games, and climb up trees.

People think Ollie's strange because his legs are uneven,
But his good attitude could move mountains - that's what Ollie's believin'. 


I am cold. As I write, my legs are literally around a space heater, I have 2 coats on and socks on my hands. This pretty much is as anti-Florida as it gets.

But thankfully, January – the coldest month of the year- is almost over. And next winter, things will be so much better… I just know it. You see, my life has changed dramatically, making me be a full-time writer. I tried to pack up my car and start anew someplace else… my journals wouldn’t fit in my car! Instead of losing a lifetime of priceless scripts, I am converting them all to computer documents to be used for a few nonfiction books, children’s poetry series, and an autobiography.

This is a temporary stage in life. I won’t be here long. My writing is going to take me far… you will see. My writing is going to bring my dreams into reality, where there is an abundance of sunshine and warmth.

New Blog - Jireh & Addy

Don't worry - I'm not moving my blog again... I am adding a new one (actually, maybe 2 or 3 new ones since I am writing so much) which is dedicated to my four-legged children. Jireh is my golden retriever and Addy is my angel cat... check out the new blog- Jireh & Addy.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

It Is Well With My Soul - Crystal Lewis

It is Well With My Soul

I am listening to It is Well With My Soul and just read this about the writer:

The words to this hymn was written after two major traumas in Spafford's life. The first was the Great Chicago Fire of October 1871, which ruined him financially. Shortly after, while crossing the Atlantic, all four of Spafford's daughters died in a collision with another ship. Spafford's wife Anna survived and sent him the now famous telegram: "SAVED ALONE." Several weeks later, as Spafford's own ship passed near the spot where his daughters died, he was inspired to write these words.

Bliss originally named the tune "Ville de Havre" after the ship on which Spafford's four girls perished, the SS Ville de Havre. Ironically, Bliss himself died in a tragic train wreck shortly after writing this music.
Now THAT is faith... THAT is success. THAT is a the kind of person I aspire to be.

Last night, a dear person who has been in my life since birth, well, I finally accepted they are no longer in my life. In my way of grieving, I was going through photos of our good times together, all while a tornado siren was going off for at least 15 minutes. I just kept flipping through photos, wiping the tears, well aware a tornado could pick up my dwelling and send it into Oz. I was a bit worried about Jireh and Addy, but otherwise, I was at peace.

When we are right with God, nothing else matters. It is well with my soul.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011


This entry will be reflective of my mental state: dispersed.

I have a golden retriever puppy, Jireh, who is working on potty training. Yes, I know, crate training is the solution, but I have this crazy fear of fire which prevents me from shutting an animal in a crate. I also have this fear of being outside in the dark, which I am conquering while taking Jireh out at all hours of the night. Pray... I pray for peace, provision and patience. Jireh is doing better - in fact, last night was the first night she had no accidents (yipee!). Still, my writing flow is constantly impeded by Jireh's bodily flows.

I’ve truly been enjoying the feedback I have been getting from my blogs, especially yesterday’s. The various comments tend to be indicative of the relationship I have with the responder. One person pointed out my typos, which was funny because I do the same when he sends me memos. Another tried assuring me that you don’t have to be without friends on Path #2. Still another praised me for sharing a hint of the message of salvation without being ‘down your throat’. I love the feedback because it toughens me for rejection letters from publishers and editors. I have received a few of those this week (along with ‘sorry, the job you applied for had been filled’), which I am now viewing as a gauge of productivity. For years, I didn’t submit Dillon the Dolphin (or any of my writing) because of dreaded rejection letters. Now I figure – hey, at least I am trying and not sitting around idle in a pity party. And the more query letters I write, the better I will get at writing them while my mind is in a writer’s mode.

It is far better to have a heart to do good and want ability for it than have ability for it and want a heart to it. --Matthew Henry Commentary

Monday, January 24, 2011

Previous Blog Entries

Here is where my previous blog entries were:
Eventually, I will transfer them all to Blogger.

2 Paths

So I am back to is too complicated for me. I just want to write, not crack the code for Wikileaks.


2 Paths
1st one is crowded with people, none of them stay with you. None of them put your best interest first at all times. Most of them lead you into trouble for the sake of temporary pleasure – internal, external, but not eternal. The path is broken, unclear signs contradict your gut feeling. You have pleasure, for a moment, but never peace, never comfort, never security because all you have is not yours at all and can be snatched away at any time. But you do please yourself whenever and however you can. Too bad you cannot rest enough to enjoy such pleasures even in the limited time they are with you. Probably the worst part is the uncertainty of knowing where this path ends. You have no reason to hurry or progress without a clear destination. The traveling is meaningless, and the crowds that once entertained you begin to remind you how lost you are. Your destiny is unknown.

2nd path is unpopulated, except for one Man who stays with you through your journey. He doesn’t let you stop for temporary fixes. If you do, he will wait while you wander, but you are on your own while off the path. When you are ready to journey Home again, He takes you by the hand, brushes off your scraped knee, and carries you while you cry. As you mature, He takes you down more complex paths with more things to see, more lessons to learn, and more opportunities for joy. He has provided you with an instruction book with everything you need for a successful life. But if you rarely use it, it will not make much sense. The more you study it, the easier it is to understand as you hear a Spirit explaining the words to you. He even shows you how the verses apply to the path which you are currently taking. The words stay the same, but the Spirit shares different things depending on where you are on your path. The best part of this path is you know where it ends. There is a mansion built just for you with loved ones awaiting your arrival. And this wonderful Guide who has saved you from destruction so many times will be there and you will be able to thank Him, to praise Him for all eternity. You will want nothing more that to be in His presence as you reflect on how He took you through valleys, fire, and darkness. He will stay with you until the end. .. until you cross over Jordan… and the path leads you Home.