Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Life Changes

I no longer have an excuse to live in an oppressive lifestyle… no longer depressed, or anxious, nor do I have unhealthy living situations. So I am writing. Multiple sources are calling my name… I feel God asking me to use the talents and treasures He has given me to touch a variety of audiences. The new year brings opportunities and promises for a new chapter into a bright future.
There are blogs online of me documenting my struggles with severe depression, suicidal ideations, and paralyzing anxiety. Blogs so real and transparent that I pray certain people never read them as they make me uncomfortable processing them. Some sound like I am about to put a gun to my head as soon as I stop writing the blog entry, and looking back, there were days when that idea wasn’t too foreign or outrageous, to tell the truth. My identity was molded by my mental illness, and it consumed my life starting in 2006 when I had a major job switch and my beloved kitty cat died unexpectantly. 
The past 8 years have been at minimum a seemingly insurmountable challenge to which I spent many days merely existing by staring at the ceiling, laying in bed all day. One could say I wasted my life back then, when in reality, I was saving my life. More about this later. Then there was my professional life prior to my “mental breakdown’ – yeah, that’s what it was…a mental breakdown. Life before that time was completely opposite from the depressed, anxious, agoraphobic bed-ridden body morph I transpired into… I was a Licensed Mental Health Therapist and Certified Rehabilitation Counselor in Private Practice… the only Med-Waiver mental health therapist in Central Florida. After hanging out my shingle, I had quite a business! I was living the dream. I was reaping the benefits of a hard earned education. Life was good, professionally. 
Personally, not so much. Now, I see I needed the forced respite from mental illnesses to discover who I truly am, and to live authentically. The Bible states “It was good for me to be afflicted so that I may learn your decrees…” … no truer words have been spoken.

Monday, December 29, 2014

Major Work to be Done

Okay- it now 4:53 a.m. and I have so many changes & ideas for this blog, I don't know where to start - so I am going to bed.

Just be prepared for more optimistic, upbeat, faith-based, victorious entries ahead.

* Both my depression and anxiety are managed.
* I am no longer on Xanax (evil medication!).
* I am writing again.
* I live in my favorite city.
* I have been having some issues with Cerebral Palsy and aging. (BOOOO!)
* I have a service dog, Jireh (which is Hebrew for "God Provides").
* I am extremely introverted.
* I found a wonderful new church.
* I am obsessed with Scripture Art Journaling.
* I am writing a fiction novel and plan to share excerpts on this site,

I Mean It This Time... I'm Back!

A brand new year! A brand new Shelly! Four brand new manuscripts in process! A brand new environment! A brand new passion (Scripture-Journaling). Brand new poetry!

So much is new!!!! except my blog address... it will remain the same so we can easily contrast the multitude of God's blessings in the old verses/versus and the new...